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Why do I have to cry?
Or perhaps shed a tear
I don't understand
I was never weak before

I forsake the evil in this world
For hurting me so
I'm shivering in the cold
... half-awake
... half-dead

Death is creeping
Through the break in the wall
I must not pity myself
But all the hatred in my heart burns

It strikes me like a blade
A blade so mightily forged
It irks me everytime I dare
To feel through the thundering pain

I should have let it go
Life is more precious
But now I realize its too late
Dark is taking me away

**081405 xncha

a poem i made..

My heart was left inside a closed box
Contained and cannot be freed
Wishing to see the faint light of day
Nothing’s creeping inside
Memories of your face linger
Just glimpses of the past
It hears you screaming
It does not see the reason why
It has become deaf and blind
As though it were cold and dead
It started to break into pieces
Just after you hastily left
Please come back soon
Try to make it whole again
A fire was burning before
But now only ashes are left
Something extinguished that burning
I just hope it wasn’t you
Coz if it was….
….my heart cannot love anymore…

Story Of A Girl

There once was a timid little girl
Aloft on a dusty purple swing
Her head was lightly inclined down
Slowly, she began to sing

She was far from picture perfect
Her face was somewhat bare
As great books can't be tasted
By the worn-out covers they were

Her head was quite imaginative
Her stories heard by all
The people saw a new light
She grew out of judgments call

She went through many things in life
The agony of falling, the pain of a loss
She sliced through them like a sharpened knife
She battled out for a worthy cause


by arafella 2005

Nowhere

I feel downcast and desolated
Trapped within these boundless walls
I endure distress which is too sober
In these agony of tears that flow

My passion for you was ambiguous
It was absurd and downright inept
Still it was without doubt
That you have captured my guiltless heart

I don’t exist in your complex world
To you I’m evanescent
Like a wind you just passed by
Hardly recognized, yet felt

Too many times you capitulated me
I assumed that you were just perplexed
You led me to believe that you were true
How oblivious of me to fall

Through the depths of my shattered heart
I cried out loud for you
I waited patiently for your response
The deafening silence only came

Because of your arrogance I’m here
Staring at these endless walls
I’m in a stupor that’s interminable
I see nothing at all

by arafella 2005

**yawn**

umm... its a minute past 12 am.... i'm sleepy..... but I'm still in front of this damn computer.... I've been up updating my website.... looks great, doesn't it?? I get deeper eye bags everytym I stay up late..... but what can I do?? I won't go to sleep till I finish my updating my new website... hujhgiugsdssssssssssssssssss........... yawn..... i think i better sleep noW.... till nxt tym..