i'm sleepy....

ummm... nothing really exciting happened today... uh, it was our humanities day in our school day and boy, was it so boring... we had nothin' better to do than practice for our presentation. We sort of presented a stupid(pardon...) love poem in a verse choir kind of way. Can you believe it? I was even one of the persons who are supposed to do the drama acting thing... and jeez... I looked (i guess...) pathetic and 'duh uh' in a nineteen forgotten outfit. On the other hand, 'twas cool 'coz I wasn't part of the verse choir. I now swear that it was the last time I will ever agree to play such a 'whatever' role... pardon again... lol.


On the other hand, I just might think about it... If the situation counts for it.... I mean, if I'm paired with someone as cool and hot as Tom Welling.... I'll take the part! immediately.. lol.

so damn tired... i'm bored... just finished pimping up my friendster profile.... haven't done that since ages ago... and I decided to be a great big sister by beautifying (if that's what you call it) my younger sister's friendster profile...

uhuh.. and I've been catching up on giving out testimonials to my ever so loving friends.. lol...

according to the trusty computer clock, it says it is now 10:40 PM..
my eyes are really tired.. i need to rest.. don't know why I'm doing this blogging thing..
what the heck... (pardon again).... :)

uh, i forgot. something really embarassing happened to me yesterday.... I want to tell it right now but my eyes can't just take it anymore.. I guess I'll write about it in my next blog entry.. :)

....what's with the smileys :)??????

Home is where the heart is..

Hey guys! How was your Christmas break? I hope you enjoyed it. Even though many of my classmates say that they had a boring time because they had nothing to do. For me, it was the exact opposite. No, no… I did not go someplace else… I stayed home. Yeah, yeah… You might think that staying home is boring, but it can be fun when you have 5 siblings like me.

When I was small, I really tried my best to stay away from home. All I want to do was hang out with my friends. I would sometimes miss my organ lessons in exchange for an afternoon of fun with my friends. How stupid of me.

I also tried my best to stay away from my younger siblings Don2x Joy, and Donna because they are irritating and always bickering-- saying remarks like from Don2x: “Joy, you’re so fatty. I want to squash you.’ and from Joy: “Mom, please save me from my misery with Don2x-- but sadly, to no avail. Donna is just irritating when she screams when she wants to watch the channel ANIMAX on tv. I mean come on, she is just four and to be watching Animax?... where some of the anime are in the Japanese language. Where did the Dora the Explorer and Blue’s Clues days of her go? It went bye-bye. Now, all she sings are “chara wata pa ching ta wushu mawey…” blah blah blah…

But when I went to study here in Iloilo, I suddenly realized that I miss them. You see, I only live with my two older siblings here in Iloilo. And my parents and other siblings are in Aklan.

I miss the bread and the butter… which is from Bread and Butter…. I miss getting complete school supplies… from Blue Star!

I have long ago adjusted to this place. I’m not homesick or anything because after all, it also feels like home here. I just miss getting free stuff, asking mom and dad for allowance (and not worrying when my money runs out), unlimited load (Pasaload from mom and dad!), not worrying about the gasoline expenses, and the whole ‘countryside’ atmosphere of Kalibo.

Anyways, the Ati-Atihan Festival is getting near and I am so excited!!!

But hey!, for now I just realized I better stick here because here, I have a DSL internet connection, movies, and lots of songs in iTunes… Plus, I feel this that being here feels just RIGHT…

US Bombings in Japan: The Injustice

This is a short feature article I wrote for our exams in Social Science. Since I have nothing better to do... I thought I might just share it... Pardon some grammatical flaws... I also made some minor revisions as to the original...

US Bombings in Japan: The Injustice

Upto this time, scholars are still debating over the injustice the bombs caused in Hiroshima and Nagasaki. The US did a very drastic move against the Japanese by bombing two major cities in Japan where many innocent people resided. It doesn't matter who started the bombing, and obviously it was the Japanese who first bombed Pearl Harbor which destroyed fleets of ships of the US Navy, but who was to blame? Who is to blame? The Japanese? who took the liberty of destroying the US Naval Army... or the Americans?, who only took revenge.

Yet, I can imagine the great impact if the bombs 'Fat Man' and 'Little Boy' on both Hiroshima and Nagasaki. People who survived to tell the tale talked about the horrified melting faces of people panicking and slowly deteriorating, the destruction if so much property, the heat enveloping them all, and the darkness that suddenly fell over them as though it were Judgment Day. Japan and United States really didn't think the consequences of their actions. They retreated dramstically, to save their pride and country, to the most unhuman moves. It was though bombing each others territories could resolve their issues. I think the fitting motto for them is 'An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth'.

Now, the pain of them all has somewhat go away, but... there is still that thought... and feeling of anger that resides among both Americans and Japanese towards each other. But what more can they do? There is only way... to forgive and forget. Forgive each others faults and weaknesses. Forget the roots of the fight that occurred. All they can do now is to move on and focus on the development of their countries. I hope that there will never come a time when suppressed angers will once again resurface. Just maybe, history will not repeat itself.

The Cookie Thief

The Cookie Thief
This is to a scenario encouraging us not to rush into judgments.

A woman was waiting at an airport one night With several long hours before her flight. She hunted for a book in the airport shop Bought a bag of cookies and found a place to drop. She was engrossed in her book but happened to see That the man beside her as bold as could be Grabbed a cookie or two from the bag between Which she tried to ignore to avoid a scene. She munched cookies and watched the clock As this gutsy cookie thief diminished her stock.

She was getting more irritated as the minutes ticked by Thinking "If I wasn't so nice I'd blacken his eye". With each cookie she took he took one too And when only one was left she wondered what he'd do. With a smile on his face and a nervous laugh He took the last cookie and broke it in half.

He offered her half as he ate the other She snatched it from him and thought "Oh brother, this guy has some nerve and he's also rude Why he didn't even show any gratitude".

She had never known when she had been so galled and sighed with relief when her flight was called. She gathered her belongings and headed for the gate Refusing to look back at the thieving ingrate. She boarded the plane and sank in her seat Then sought her book which was almost complete. As she reached in her baggage she gasped with surprise There was her bag of cookies in front of her eyes:

"If mine are here" she moaned with despair "Then the others were his and he tried to share"

"Too late to apologize she realized with grief" That she was the rude one, the ungrateful, the thief

Smallville, Smallville, Smallville!

*sigh* I missed a lot of shows on Smallville since it's been a busy school time... I certainly missed a lot... I have watched Seasons 1-3 during summer break and I really looked forward to Season 4... but... due to unfavorable circumstances.. I wasn't able to do so...

But anyways, I'm trying to keep up.. I'm currently downloading Season 4 right now.. hehhe... Wheee! Can't miss 'em! I gotta watch 'em!

So.. I've been surfing some sites and found this really cool website about everything Smallville. It's alwys updated and I don't miss up on what's happening.. Lots of cool features.... ]
Check it out at www.smallvilleph.com

grrrrr....

sO now what....... what am I gonna do? I'm so depressed I wish there was someone who could cheer me up. I'm so down. haha... just joking... I'm so happy and cheerful despite the fact that I'm still awake late in the evening chatting in YM and updating this blog of mine (which I think nobody cares to read...) plus tons of homeworks and lots of projects which deadlines are upcoming. Grrrr......... I wish it was still summer. ^_^

...

Why do I have to cry?
Or perhaps shed a tear
I don't understand
I was never weak before

I forsake the evil in this world
For hurting me so
I'm shivering in the cold
... half-awake
... half-dead

Death is creeping
Through the break in the wall
I must not pity myself
But all the hatred in my heart burns

It strikes me like a blade
A blade so mightily forged
It irks me everytime I dare
To feel through the thundering pain

I should have let it go
Life is more precious
But now I realize its too late
Dark is taking me away

**081405 xncha

a poem i made..

My heart was left inside a closed box
Contained and cannot be freed
Wishing to see the faint light of day
Nothing’s creeping inside
Memories of your face linger
Just glimpses of the past
It hears you screaming
It does not see the reason why
It has become deaf and blind
As though it were cold and dead
It started to break into pieces
Just after you hastily left
Please come back soon
Try to make it whole again
A fire was burning before
But now only ashes are left
Something extinguished that burning
I just hope it wasn’t you
Coz if it was….
….my heart cannot love anymore…

Story Of A Girl

There once was a timid little girl
Aloft on a dusty purple swing
Her head was lightly inclined down
Slowly, she began to sing

She was far from picture perfect
Her face was somewhat bare
As great books can't be tasted
By the worn-out covers they were

Her head was quite imaginative
Her stories heard by all
The people saw a new light
She grew out of judgments call

She went through many things in life
The agony of falling, the pain of a loss
She sliced through them like a sharpened knife
She battled out for a worthy cause


by arafella 2005

Nowhere

I feel downcast and desolated
Trapped within these boundless walls
I endure distress which is too sober
In these agony of tears that flow

My passion for you was ambiguous
It was absurd and downright inept
Still it was without doubt
That you have captured my guiltless heart

I don’t exist in your complex world
To you I’m evanescent
Like a wind you just passed by
Hardly recognized, yet felt

Too many times you capitulated me
I assumed that you were just perplexed
You led me to believe that you were true
How oblivious of me to fall

Through the depths of my shattered heart
I cried out loud for you
I waited patiently for your response
The deafening silence only came

Because of your arrogance I’m here
Staring at these endless walls
I’m in a stupor that’s interminable
I see nothing at all

by arafella 2005

**yawn**

umm... its a minute past 12 am.... i'm sleepy..... but I'm still in front of this damn computer.... I've been up updating my website.... looks great, doesn't it?? I get deeper eye bags everytym I stay up late..... but what can I do?? I won't go to sleep till I finish my updating my new website... hujhgiugsdssssssssssssssssss........... yawn..... i think i better sleep noW.... till nxt tym..